Lonely?

ever felt so lonely that you feel like crying? I've always heard people telling me these sorta things. and frankily..... i do feel like that once in a while.

When someone tells you that he feels lonely.. you just casually assume that he is someone with no dates, with no sex partner, with no life....

Nope i'm not talking about those. i'm talking about feeling lonely, when you are out having a date with someone, lonely when another person is lying on the same bed with you, lonely when someone is sitting on the opposite side of the table, chatting with you.

so.... in a way, being lonely is not associated with the fact if you are physically ALONE or not.....

its more of like erm..... you have a feeling that you are not connected to anyone. you felt like you are standing alone in foreign planet. you feel like there is an emptiness, even though someone is physically with you.

its a cursed feeling... to some extend. its even worst then feeling lonely due to being alone.

i'm very good in controlling my emotions. to the extend that i have not shed a single tear for the past 13 years. but even guys with heart of stone feels this way once in a while.

personally i think its good to indulge yourself with these lonely feelings sometimes, it will make you appreciate your company even more. BUT i seriously think that there is a limit to everything. if you choose to let yourself sink into these feeling deeper and deeper.... you will eventually sink.

One day, you will sink to the extend that you no longer appreciates the little happiness in life. you no longer feels good about yourself. you no longer can stand couple around you. you keep wondering why everyone seem to be able to find their "soulmates". EVERYONE...... except you.

you will start to associate that, feeling lonely means..... being physically alone. and eventually, all that is in your mind, will be to look for a relationship asap.

relationships are not meant to be found when you are purposely looking for it. it usually comes when you least expects it. its these unexpected love that will make your relationship special.....

To A Very Dear Fren: save yourself from drowning. piece your life together and just patiently await the special love that is currently coming your way, but is currently caught in a traffic jam in CTE. its better late than never.