Breakups.

Break ups are hard. after much struggling and battles of the heart, many may have to come to this conclusion with no other choice.

Relationship are actually a series of compromise. but when you discover that there is nothing more for you to give, you are left with no choice but to end it.

All i take to get over a relationship is..... 24 hours. and after that i will be moving on. thus many have came to a conclusion that i am a heartless, cruel piece of shit. But what many didn't know.... is that..... it takes 12 good years of training to get to this stage.

Just how many relationship can you get in and out of within 12 years? hm.... me? more than 30. it got to a point that the word "Relationship", is no longer sacred. it became a norm. dats why i nowadays always frens to date longer, before throwing yourself deep into the burning flame.

Please do not have the impression that i have never been dumped. like i mentioned in my previous posting, Me too have been dumped numerious times. mostly due to the fact that i was naive, fat and childish in the past.

i used to think that, as long as i love someone with all my heart and soul, that someone will someday be touched and love me back. well..... fairytale. at the end of the day, it is better to leave some space between the 2 of you, and be reserved a bit.

The only lesson that was taught to me these 12 years, are that, relationship, no matter how good, are bound to have hiccups. your BF, no matter how perfect he might seem, will still cheat on you.

So, to avoid the heartache, why choose to be in a relationship? haha okie, i'm a pessimist.
i have marriage phobia, and commitment issues. and yes... at any first sign that the relationship MIGHT not work out, i will end it. to save myself from the POSSIBLE heartache in future.

i might seem heartless, but all i can do is to pack my emotions and throw them into the cupboard. what else was i supposed to do? Cry day and night like a crazy baby? nothing's gonna change.

Having said these... i will be lying if i were to tell you that i do not feel sad, and that i feel nothing. we are humans afterall. the emotions were never deleted. just packed away somewhere that i will not see it.

once a while, when i am alone in my room, listening to sentimental songs, that's when i will dig deep into my "cupboard", clean away the dust on the "box", unseal the taboo box, and start to unpack all the emotions that i carefully sealed away all these years... the effect could be....... overwhelming.

To anyone whom i might have hurt during the past 12 years. i'm sorry. i just did what i had to. may your life be good without me. like i always told you guys. i am bad for you.

To those who have hurt me in the past.... i thank you. for if not for the valuable experience that i have gone through, i might still be that naive, childish boi. (i'm not being sacastic. i mean it....)


Song of the Day: 爱与诚 -- 古巨基



其实自己一个更开心只等你讲
其实大家早已嫌大家却扮忙
恨有多一点碰撞仍然无聊事干不敢打搅对方
要是你愿意诚实讲一趟
彼此都起码觉得释放

不要哭 我也忍得了這些年來的委曲
沒法真心愛下去 只好真心真意的結束

别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人
做只宠物至少可爱迷人
和你不瞅不睬最终只会成为敌人
沦为旧朋友是否又称心
没有心只像闲人
若有空难道有空可接吻
注定似过路人陌生你怎麽手震

长期被迫恋爱也真比失恋更惨
长期扮演若无其事般更困难
是我专登反应慢明明为时甚晚牌一早该要摊
再像我伴侣仍望多一眼一生都将会记得今晚

别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人
做只宠物至少可爱迷人
和你不瞅不睬最终只会成为敌人
沦为旧朋友是否又称心
没有心只像闲人
若有空难道有空可接吻
这预告发自虔诚内心

对不起自动分手错愕的你怕会伤感
盲目的我现在也可转台来贺你新生

别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人
做只宠物至少可爱迷人
和你相交不浅无谓明日会被你憎
沦为旧朋友是否又称心
没有心只像闲人
若有空难道有空可接吻
注定似过路人陌生你怎麽手震