Apologies

today is a sentimental day.

met up with a fren, whom i know have like me for a very long time. due to certain circumstances, i cannot like him back.

and although i have all along known that he liked me, i choose to avoid the issue all these while. nah. don't get me wrong, i did tell him before that we are impossible. i was quite taken aback when i learn that he still likes me after so long. anyway my fren is seeing someone now. :) best wishes for him. i'm sure he'll treat you better than i ever can. :)

the meeting with him actually triggered me into thinking.. why is it that people likes me? i never thought of myself as good looking, i never think that i am charming, i'm not extremely sociable. maybe cos i'm stocky, and i'm str8 acting ba.... i have been looking for answers for long time. many people do not like me at first sight, but did tell me that they think i look better and better the longer they look at me.

was chatting with another fren over the internet the other day, and he suddenly told me the following.

"i read one of your entries asking yourself what other people see in you"

"you have a very distinct smoky look which is very sexy"

"maybe its the eyes or the way you look at people.. also, your body language"

at that point of time, this fren of mine, have met me once.... recently he have met me for the 2nd time, i wonder if he still thinks the same. haha anyway. thanks for the compliment. :)

Another friend told me that its because i make people feel very comfortable in my presence. which is rather contridicting again. cos i know that people is intimidated by me.

anyway...... seriously..... to anyone reading this.....if i have ever broke your heart, with or without me knowing about it........ i'm hereby express my deepest apologies..... i might had broke your heart, when you thought that everything was going well, i might have broke your heart when you least expects it....... i have not meant for things to turn out this way. once again deepest apologies.........Best Wishes.


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