Fierce Competition

7 years, when i decided to settle down and get attached, i actually have quite a few options on who to settle down with.

haha ya... although i'm not cute or handsome, but mind you. i'm not really that ugly also hor. hehehe

anyway, i shortlisted down to 2 guys then.

Contestant No. 1: "A" is a 28 year old air force pilot, drives a nissan sunny, a plain simple guy, who always gives in to me. although he stays in Jurong, but he always travels down to Yishun just to accompany me for a meal, movie, or just to pick me up. he was very sincere, and willing to go through quite a lot for me. How i got to know him is also through gay.com, he used to be quite a regular there, and one day, he and another friend of mine decided to meet for lunch and movie. and my fren invited me along. i think he told my friend that he find my online personality attractive. so upon meeting, my friend said that he couldn't join us due to last min appointment. so that leaves just me and A for lunch and movie.

A is a very nice sweet guy. he seem to be those sort of ppl without any temper. As my working hours were quite irregular then, there were once he told me that he is on leave. but then his office keeps calling him.... later then i know... he actaully took MC so that he could meet up with me. though i must say, his sincerity and pureness did touched me. but somehow he was too obsessed with me for his own good. the thing about A is that..... when anything did not goes well.... he will tell me that "he have a hinch that he will not see me again after this". there are no self confidence at all..initially i will tell him not to think like that.... but later, i seems to hear that quite often. it was getting on my nerves. A is actually quite "my type" minus his acne prone skin.


Contestant No. 2: "B" was a 32 year old executive. drives a toyota corolla. another simple guy, who also gives in to me. he stays in yishun too. actually his place and my place was just within walking distance. How i got to know B was quite amusing.. i have chatted with him in gay.com before, and exchanged quite a few emails. but din keep in contact, cos post sending him my pics, he did not send me his.. . then 1/2 year later, he spotted me in Taboo. and tried to cruise me. but i totally took no notice of him. he tot he find me familiar, and he went home and ransack through his emails. and found my pic. and emailed me again....

B is another simple guy (ya. i have a taste for simple guys). B is not my type to began with, have bad dress sense, his jokes are lame. haha seems like i have quite a lot to complain about him. but the thing about B is that he really really treat me very well. at a point of time, when i was prepared to break away from him, i would just pull a black face, and make life difficult for him. when he made me angry on the phone, he actaully drives over to my carpark just to ensure that i am not pissed with him.

initially, B was driving his father's honda civic. so he don't always have car access. but at that point of time, i was not really into him, so, i usually decline his invitation to go far. and guess what..... he went to buy a new car... and drove me to or fro work daily, without fail. B knows that i am just neutral towards him, but he told me that, although i might not like him, but i cannot stop him from liking me. he was just hoping for a chance that i might change my mind. even if things do not work out in the end, at least, we did share some happy moments together. (quite touched)


Winner: i chose B in the end. almost all my frens whom have met B, highlighted to me in exclaimation "Wah he really treat you very good hor? Don't always bully him...". Although B was not really my type of guy, with many flaws, but his sincerity and eagerness to please, makes me feels secure around him. i did not try to change him, but then he refuse to buy any clothings with my approval "stamp". he usually will "test water", things he knows i dun like, he will not do in front of me. my words usually becomes a final order to him. i must say, i really felt like a king when with him. what more can a guy ask for?

And as for A, i could only say i am sorry. although A was also willing to go to miles for me. but during the course, i though that he was a bit self-distructing.

The main difference between A and B is that....... although both happily revolves their lives around me. A is my type, B is not. but then... when i am angry/upset. A will start to blame himself for making me angry, and start being angry with himself on why he even do certain things that i do not like.

B on the other hand, although is not really my type to begin with, but when i am angry, he always tries his best to soften the situation. even after some humiliation from me..... he is still willing to stick by me. this is one of the main reason why i settled with B in the end.

A was not handling the outcome very well..... and not long later, he accepted an oversea detachment and left singapore. and i didn't hear from him since. whenever i think of A, a very strong guilt never fails to overwhelm me.

yeap.... so now you know...... i like people who are persistant. and just for the record, i was attached with B for 6 years. :P

which is why i always tell people, the person you like might not be the one you will end up with, but the person you end up with, usually is the one who touched you the most. :)