Emotions

To everyone whom is concerned about me, thanks :) i am perfectly okie already. Yeap, shit happens :) but i do think the most important thing is that one should be able to get over thing fast. let's just put it this way, if i force myself to get over a relationship within 24 hours, i simply do not see the needs to dwell on things over my social issues.

its kindda amazing how human being's emotion functions.

Last night: 2 party were talking and chatting like they have known each other forever,

Tonight: just the thought / mention of the other party actually brings a very very negative feeling all over your body.

Current: no special emotions towards the other party.

Yeap, when i know a "Judgemental God" was passing some remarks earlier, which he had once promised not to mentioned to anyone, i was fuming. i then sent an sms to the "God" for clarification. and not surprising... he replied me "The truth hurts, I'm sorry". Yeap, i was fuming mad. and yes, to the extend that i was cursing and swearing at the Un-ethical "God" (in my heart of cos), all the while hoping that he will just rot in hell.

Then slowly, the anger develops into aching of the heart. why is there a need for 2 originally good friends to end up this way. what was the triggering point? How is it possible for a human being's emotion to fluctuate at the snap of a finger? was overwhelmed by a sense of grief, that other friends with me actually are concerned, and are constantly asking me if i am alright. (Thanks!)

Then slowly, the sense of grief starts to disappear. and what was left behind was a big void, that is unable to be filled by any other emotions. this is when all forms of feelings towards someone just died off. i was pretty surprised that the tot of a particular person, actually brings no anger or another other feelings.

its kindda contridicting, that just one day before, that person's well-being was still your piority. and now, you just don't want to have any linkages with a particular person.

Think i have realised that, its hard loving someone, but its even harder to hate someone. Why drown yourself in hate, when you can choose to free yourself from all these trouble?

Though i am still having problems with how people perceive the word "Ethics", but i think i do have to thank this person , for he indeed was quite a nice friend, before everything happens.

Thanks. period.

Song Of The Day: Spice Girls - Goodbye