A Miserable Day

ya, by now almost everyone knows that i am running a fever.

was at home the whole of today, and felt so miserable, felt so restless. i was tossing and turning on my bed, unable to sleep, even after taking medication. so i decided to jio my frens for mahjong.

logged onto IRC, toked to meow, and XLL darlin, and sent an sms to taka.

XLL darling got bowling competition tonight, so no choice.

Taka tell me he and wonder planning to go movie. and told me to ask wonder if wan or not lor... i was like... Duhz.... not my boyfriend, you cannot ask meh.... anyway they decided to go movie, even when i was like begging liao. (yeap, dats how miserable i was at home the whole day feeling sick, i need to get out.)

the only one willing to entertain me was Meow Meow. he was usually not very keen in playing in slow players, but he actually willing to settle for buaya today. hahaha just cos i wanna play mahjong.

i msn buaya, and he told me he is meeting his boi tonight. but he highlighted that he will be free on sunday.

next i sms cubby, but he was in vivocity shopping. so bo bien, but he did promise me next time :)

went back to IRC, elmo said he might be canceling his dinner appointment. so i asked him if he wans mahjong. he told me he is going dinner. (and yet i saw him online at 8 plus)

i must say, meow meow is really something, as we have not enough people, he actually can persuade his frens to agree to play mahjong. but in the end still short of one. so the mahjong plan did not fall through. but anyway. meow offered to accompany me, for coffee/dinner. though i rejected the offer, but Thanks Meow, i really appreciate your effort.

so with the mahjong plan failed, i was kindda in a slump, rotting at home, i received 4 sms asking me out for dinners/ chats/coffees. but i just dun feel like going.

until about 7 plus, i decided that i maybe wanna watch movie, and sent an sms to 2 dates asking if they wanna watch movie with me.

both come back telling me, i'm sick, i should be resting at home. and die die dun wan watch movie with me.

i just wanna say, there must be a reason why i ask you to go movie, if i'm feeling sick, you think i will wanna even leave my house? and you think that if you dun wanna watch movie with me, i will not go ahead and watch it meh? biangz.

sometimes i do wonder, what's the point of having so many dates, when they are not there when you need them most, and they turn down your request thinking what's the best for u. even when they are free. they really think that i will do what they think is the best for me?

the only one who really knows me the most, knows that i do get very restless when i am sick, but he's on night shift. so he also bo bien. (no wonder meow likes him best)

think i really need to filter out those who i shouldn't be dating anymore. as soon as possible.

yup, at the end of the day, i was at home, in my living room, watching Project Runway Season 5 on Youtube the whole evening. damn.

oh ya. i am only running a fever, not flu, its not contagious.

damn... never felt more alone than anytime. duno, maybe i am having a depression ba. i might need a new hobby soon. and thanks meow for your effort to make me feel better. i really appreciated it.

my day only really start to brighten up, when my 2 adorable nephews called me on my cellphone checking if i am alright. when the older one asked me how am i feeling, i said "Xiao Shu Shu is okie lar. just very tired...." and " if xiao shu shu die tomorrow, will you be sad a not?" wah. the big wan was screaming for me not to die. and when the smaller one heard it, he burst out crying.

i was like. WAh... Cham liao. my bro took over the phone. and scolded me a bit for toking nonsense to the kids. haha :P

ya they warmed my heart a little. so i promised to visit them when i recover, and put down the phone. and settled down to write this blog.

to anyone who have a bf: he is most depress and fragile when he is sick. be more sensitive a bit. try to give in to him.